A few weeks ago, the oh-so-familiar feelings and recollections presented themselves again. The lessened sense of self-worth at a job. The glass ceiling. The job search. The anxiety. The intruding thoughts of failure & giving up. Just a month ago, I was out to seek a great perhaps (a familiar reference for any looking for alaska fans), eager about school and adventure and a deeper sense of self-discovery. Stuck at a job literally comprised of cubicles and glass windows, I could see my escape, but I needed a way out; burned out, miserable and paralyzed, I was unable to write or take photos or fully focus on school. And so, the job search began. application after application, expectations set, hoping to escape the labyrinth. no after no came and I was losing faith.
But after praying for rain, then came the flood; a job was offered and I gladly accepted. Immediately I shouted to Mt. Zion and rejoiced in the deluge. I could feel myself coming back to life, ready to explore and meet new people and plant myself once again. From a storm of impatience and doubt came a testimony of love and unfailing grace. To my beautiful church family and to my friends, thanks for your unconditional support and encouragement, I am ecstatic to start over and begin this journey again because today it feels a second chance has come.
Literary references:
Looking for Alaska - John Green
First Day of My Life - Brighteyes