The last few weeks have been comprised of me living on my knees, studying educational research, preparing for finals and the next semester, watching friendships unravel, writer's blocks, creative blocks, anger, sin, battling health issues, insomnia, anxiety, setting boundaries for some relationships and experimenting with others, lots of ruminating, introspection and yelling at the sky.
Thinkinghopingwishingprayingloving.
My coffee was cold, the cars went by and I was waiting for someone to save me. Somedays I felt it all at once, most days I felt nothing at all. I was lost at sea & my legs became anchors. I was so used to being a one-man show that I forgot where I could run to. Where the source of my strength came from. After a series of unfortunate events, once again once again once again He came and saved me.
I was lost and He found me.
I was lost and He found me.
I was lost and He found me.
Today I'm learning from my prideful mistakes. 22, stubborn, reckless, & selfish. His mercy endures forever.
I'm throwing in the towel & throwing up the white flag. His mercy endures forever.
I'm putting down the megaphone & tearing down walls. His mercy endures forever.
Instead of burning bridges, I'm building foundations. For His mercy endures forever.
Today, I'm turning rust to gold & lifting my head to Zion. But this time instead of clenched fists I'm offering an open heart.